Sunday, September 30, 2012

Let it out

Off balance in doubt
Unknowing of what it's all about
Unclear unsure
In a midst of decision's on shore
Fluttered in
Shattered out
Back and forth on trust and doubt
Digging in dirt
Butterflies never hurt
Caterpillar crawled
Cocooned and flawed
Beauty on the tip of its wing
Spread wide in the wind of sing

(c) 2011 Ebony Larijani

Proverbs 31 Woman, Day 19

Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised. Charm is misleading, isn't that the truth. Many will mislead you with a charming personality. Beauty only lasts for a short time, that too holds truth. But the woman who fears the Lord is praised.

We all have done it or still do it. And since I'm not here to judge whether you do or not, you don't have to admit anything to me. I'm here just to cause us all to think. Have you ever led someone on by being charming? Has someone ever fooled you with their charming ways? How do you feel after, no matter what side of the charm you were on. Did you feel fooled or maybe even bad. It was a moment of fake, to obtain something you wanted. Have you ever used your beauty to get something? Has someone ever approached you based off your beauty alone? Neither lasted long did it?

To fear The Lord does not mean we are running and hiding from Him. It means we know His power, we live to please Him, we rely on Him and we let nothing disturb that. In return He praises us, He adores us and we remain in His favor.
Ladies be praised, but do not be charming or beautiful.
(c) 2011 Ebony Larijani

Friday, September 28, 2012

Join the "Letters to the Soul" writing group

Every week write a letter to yourself, releasing anything that you chose. Email your letter (without your name on it) to and you letter will go to another person eager to soulfully experience your world. Whether relating with you or advising you. The following week your response letter will come back to you (without a name) and you will get to read a response from the words you released. It's beautiful to know that we are not alone in this world with whatever we face joyfully or painfully. This group has been exchanging letters for months now and each week is a success. Remember you do not have to put your name on any of  your letters! Neither do you have to write every week. If you would like to write, letters are due every Fri-Sat and your letter is returned to you no later then Tues.
If you do not submit a letter you will not receive someone else's to reply to, only those that submit letters get the gift of being able to write back to another soul as well. I hope you script and release...

(c) 2011 Ebony Larijani

Proverbs 31 Woman, Day 18

Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all. I had to meditate and ask God to clear my mind after reading this verse. Did it mean I am better then the next woman, was it a competition statement? Then God said to me, "I am speaking to all women who read my word, so yes, you are more spiritual then the woman who does not read and understand my word".

These spoken words from God reminded me of why I am currently writing my second poetry book and basing it off of the definition of words. Words are so easily misused. How would you feel if a woman told you "I'm better then you"? Ladies, lets be honest now when I ask you this, lol. Now answer how would you feel if a woman sat you down and explained to you, reading your bible daily and meditating on Gods word will help you in life. Things will start to change in your life that you would never believe, God will do the supernatural and miracles won't fear you because you know they are possible and they happen daily. Meditating under the moon, giggling at the fluttering leaves, raising your children off prayer alone, guiding your husband by speaking to God. Rising in the morning with a smile on your face excited about what is in store for your day, because you and God already planned it.

Now I repeat the verse again, many women do noble things. We all can rise, fall, fight, laugh, cry, grow, shrink, etc. We do noble things, we feed our children, we work two jobs, we clean, cook, lift up our friends and watch our enemies fall. BUT YOU, surpass them all. The Godly woman only knows to live for God, so she rises, but does not fall, she may drift but never fall because God holds her. She doesn't fight, God fights for her, she laughs, she cries to God, she grows, God allows no shrinkage. She cooks, cleans, praises and witness's to her friends, she prays for her enemies and even helps them rise. God is saying "YOU whom follows me, surpasses them all.

We will never be perfect, we shouldn't try to be. But we should always be walking in our natural state which is love to all for all. Nothing exists without love, nothing is successful without love, nothing is forgiven without love, nothing can be found, without love.

Be noble women and surpass them all...

(c) 2011 Ebony Larijani

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Proverbs 31 Woman, Day 17

Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also and he praises her. Lets be honest here. Don't we love it when someone acknowledges all that we do. It is a feeling of appreciation and love. Her children clearly see what she does for them and they know its a blessing. I would also like to point out that she must have raised these children with respect. Not many children are mature enough to realize what mothers/women do for them. So to have your children realize your worth is amazing.

Her husband knows that without her he would lake spiritual things in his life that keep him balanced and whole. Have you heard the saying "Behind every good man is a strong woman". We were born to nurture and care for. We seem to have taken these words and transferred them into societies standards which are "Girl, don't do for him, he better do for you". Yet we were created to love, honor and obey. The husband of the blessed woman knows his strength and love come from her continued prayer over him. He knows her hands help keep his life in order. I can picture him praising her with faithful words on his tongue because that is how she herself speaks to him.
What a beautiful family, praising each other and understanding why a woman of God is power to her family.
Children/Men, I hope you're reading this and I pray that you tell your mother/wife how much of a blessing she is. Lift her up and praise her.

(c) 2011 Ebony Larijani

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Proverbs 31 Woman, Day 16

She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness. I was discussing this with a friend of mine and we acknowledged how the immature may view this verse as "she keeps a tight grip on her husband so that he does not cheat and if he does she's not tripping". Doesn't that sound like the majority of women these days? But no, this is not speaking of affairs as in to cheat. The affairs of her household means she is praying that her husband rises in the morning with strength and works diligently when he goes out, comes home to a meal prepared by her eager hands, fellowships within their home that she sees to it remains clean, and lays with him at night giving faithful words (communication) from her tongue. She is praying that her children do well in school, she helps them study, monitors who their friends are and keeps them involved in activities to help them grow. She knows when it is okay to open the windows and let cool air in or when she should have on the heat. She knows how the clothes should be washed, who needs a favorite shirt or work pants ironed. She knows what time to send her children to bed on a school night and what fun they can have on the weekends. These are just a few affairs of her household, the daily things she must watch and pray over.

Keeping her eyes on God and the affairs of her home she has no time to become idle. Let me remind you that the devil is like a lion when he smells an idle mind. He can take over it and devour all that it was destined to be. Do not forget, you become as you think. I am living proof of that. I clearly remember the days I use to walk, talk and think in an idle state. Day in and day out being devoured by the devil within my mind. He filled it with some crazy thoughts and I lay many nights crying for him to release me and God to take over. It didn't happen over night, it was a long journey. Even now at times I drift into an idle moment, because sure we all have those moments. But the key to everlasting joy is to have control over your mind. So when it drifts I now find myself gaining control and focusing on things like the trees, the moon, the sound of silence. See I don't want you to get confused and think in order to not become idle you must stay busy. No, that is not the answer. In order to not fall into the pit of idle you must learn how to find your inner self and hear it when alone. Know how to balance life, whether it be a single life or married life; with or without children.

Watch and pray over your household affairs and don't feast on things that are not of God!

(c) 2011 Ebony Larijani

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

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Proverbs 31 Woman, Day 15

She speaks with wisom and faithful instruction is on her tongue. To be a woman with wisdom says alot. I beleive wisdom is gained with age, not indicating young woman are dumb. But age defines experience. You can not expect a young woman to know the pain of child bearing, the joy of raising a child, the pain of heartbreak, the joy of marriage. The confusion of life and the clear view of the journey. So with that said, this is why the older the woman the more wisdom she is expected to have. What she has been through in life was a test and if she knew what to do with each test then she earned her blessings and became full of wisdom.

Faithful instruction on her tongue. To give instruction means to tell what to do. I don't think this woman went around telling people what to do. I am sure that she instructed them to follow Jesus. And I am sure she instructed them by sharing her journey with him, her testimony. She was faithful in her speech, faithful to her Heavenly Father, faithful to her husband, faithful to her children. The words she spoke were not words of hate. She knew what came out of her mouth and off her tongue could be damaging or uplifting. Faithfully she made she her instruction to all was of faithfulness.

I believe you can tell a lot about a woman by the way she carries herself and also by her speech. Have you ever met a woman who spoke very demanding and hard core, cursing every other word? I don't find that attractive, nor do I find if faithful instruction. Surround yourself with women who enjoy being full of wisdom and take pride in the faithfulness her tongue can give.

(c) 2011 Ebony Larijani

Sunday, September 23, 2012

Proverbs 31 Woman, Day 14

She makes linen garments and sells them and supplies the merchants with sashes. Do you think she ever stopped using her hands? As I read through these verses I just imagine how her husband and her children looked at her. I imagine how at peace she is with herself, undisturbed by society, her friends, her enemies, her neighbors. Everything she does is for show, not to the world but for God. It's like telling Him thank you for the way He blessed her with husband, children and a working body. I still picture her so beautiful, not just because of her outer looks, but because of what she has within that she gives out.

I often wonder if women understand who we are and what God created us to be. Where are the women who find favor in submitting, honoring, obeying, giving. I wonder if we realize that the moment we truly understand and become, joy and blessings manifest.

If you are a woman struggling with pain, parenting, being a wife, being a friend, etc. Then I am here to tell you, your journey is still in season. Never will we be perfect, but joy will come once we let go of trying to please the world and only please God by being whom He created us to be.

(c) 2011 Ebony Larijani

Saturday, September 22, 2012

Proverbs 31 Woman, Day 13

Her husband is respected at the city gates, where he takes his seat amongst the elders. Do make a point to approve or disapprove who you let inside your home, car, heart, mind? To be respected at the city gates means he had to prove himself in order to gain entrance into the gates. Sure we all are human and make mistakes, but I think in this time and age men have truly become worthless! I don't mean that in a harsh way. I mean us as a society continue to put men down instead of lift them up. On the flip side if us women respected ourselves more, then the worthless men would have no choice but to change themselves in order to be able to get a woman. Right now we are not being women and they are not being men. It seems to be a world full of boys and girls.

I use the word worth-less to say you are allowing yourselves to be worth less then what you were created and are capable of being. I speak into existence now that I will be the first to say gentlemen I will not receive anything less then what I was created to receive. I am allowed to say that even as a married woman because those women and girls that surround me will be influenced by me, and we have to start somewhere.

He sits amongst the elders. In the bible it talks a lot about having elders pray over you and gaining wisdom from them. So not only did he enter, but he knew where to sit.

(c) 2011 Ebony Larijani

Friday, September 21, 2012

Proverbs 31 Woman, Day 12

She makes coverings for her bed; she is clothed in fine linen and purple. How many of you make your bed in the morning when you get up? If you do not, you should try it. If you do, I'm sure you have noticed the peaceful feeling that it brings knowing you are not rushed in the morning. You have the time to give to your place of rest. And as you come home I know there is delight in the attention that it feeds you as you walk in your room and see a made up bed. She makes coverings for her bed, I can imagine her making sheets and pillow cases or little pillows for her children or her and her husbands bed.

Clothed in fine linen. Nothing about this sentence tells me that she has high taste for expensive things. I get a sense of humbleness in this sentence, peace in her fine linen. She has no labels on her clothing and therefore no one can label her, most importantly she doesn't label herself. She knows the clothing she wears are of linen to cover her body so she may be respected.

I find this interesting, the color purple. I researched what this color means. Purple is the color of good judgment. It is the color of people seeking spiritual fulfillment. It is said if you surround yourself with purple you will have peace of mind. Purple is a good color to use in meditation. What a beautiful woman, dressed without labels so she is not judged, covered in cloth so she is fulfilled spiritually and not revealing the body God gave her. At peace with herself and in her mind. I picture her humming in the morning, meditating on how she will spend her day.

Rise up beautiful woman, cover your bed in the morning and cover your body.

(c) 2011 Ebony Larijani

Thursday, September 20, 2012

The Lilly On The Edge

She was like a Lilly on the edge of water, ready to set sea, release and set free... She sat for a while admiring all the joy that everything else had amongst the currents, and it wasn't until she cared no more about how to jump in, she let go and fell in, submerged down under she looked up and life's view forever changed.

(c) 2011 Ebony Larijani

The Dream

This hasn't happened to me since I was a little kid, a nightmare.  One that wakes you up in the middle of the night clinched to your pillow and fearful that it might be real. Until you open your eyes and realize it was just a dream. Then what do you do? Lay in your bed fearful of all the things you visioned in this dream, wondering what part will happen and which won't.

My nightmare scared me as my eyes first opened, unconscious and in a fearful state. Of course not my natural state. I closed my eyes again before I replayed the dream. I said a few words. "Jesus tell me what you want me to see". See I believe had I not set myself up to receive the good out of this dream I would have feared it. There is good in everything it just takes a concious mind to know and see that. As I asked Jesus to guide me back through my dream I noticed all of the scary parts about it were in the back of my mind yet overlooked. I was now going through the truth. The details that God wanted me to see. I noticed landmarks and timing and positions of people and words that were not said in the dream that I could say now. I continued to tell Jesus how much I loved him and I hummed joyful melodies and I prayed for forgiveness in areas I had never. Right before I opened my eyes I remembered one thing. The overflow of blessings has been deeply flowing into my life lately and I know the devil is mad! It was almost as if even he realizes my power and thought that he would take over my mind as if I was a little girl waking up to a bad dream. For years he had me awake living up to his weakned ungodly standards. He has lost me and I guess just like anyone when the loose something, they search for it in areas they use to be.

It is amazing how eager the devil is to devour anyone in anyway, but as we continue to weed him out and seek God, quickly and surely we step on his head!

(c) 2011 Ebony Larijani

Proverbs 31 Woman, Day 11

When it snows she has no fear for her household for all of them are clothed in scarlet. The seasons change, that we know. God does not surprise us by jumping from 90 degree weather to ice and snow. He gives us notice, he slows cools and slowly heats. Giving us time to have our family prepared. We are to spring clean and winter prepare.

The season is changing now, have you place the summer items in containers and put them up for next year? I pray you are pulling down the jackets and long sleeves. Are you planning in shopping for everything new? I hope not, remember how humble we ought to be. Sure there are items in the stores that we desire to have, but let's go through our own stuff prior to shopping because what no longer fits can go to the poor and needy.

This is how we care for others as we care for ourselves.

(c) 2011 Ebony Larijani

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Proverbs 31 Woman, Day 10

She opens her arms to the poor and extends her hands to the needy. What is poor and who is needy? I think everyone at one point has been needy, because we all have needs. I don't think she put levels on who she would help and who she would not. Is your neighbor without something that you have? Is your friend in need? Are there poor families whom you can help. Sometimes people need things that do not cost you anything. Is there an elderly woman who needs things fixed around her home. A disable man who needs his grass cut.

When you choose where and what you give realize that there is always something and somewhere to give.

(c) 2011 Ebony Larijani

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

The Gift

If you are strong enough to be weak enough, you are given a wound that never heals. It is the gift that keeps the heart open. ~Oriah

 If you have ever been so strong that your friend stabbed you in the back and you had to be weak enough to feel the knife. If you have ever been so strong to listen to the truth that he/she cheated, yet weak enough to shed the tears. If you have ever been so strong to raise children and yet weak enough to endure child birth. If you have ever been so strong to keep the molesting secret yet weak enough to feel their hand. If you have ever been so strong to imprison the rappest yet weak enough to loose voice as you yell no. If you have ever been so strong to admit the truth yet weak enough to have told the lie. If you have ever been so strong to drive home drunk yet weak enough to fill on something so dangerous. If you have ever been so strong to walk with a disability yet weak enough to cry out why me.

If you have ever been weak I pray you realize your gift, it is not the degree of your strength! It is the gift from the experience, the loss the gain, the endured pain. Seek your gift because we all know how to show strength, to show gifts, that puts you on another level. A spiritual level!

(c) 2011 Ebony Larijani

Proverbs 31 Woman, Day 9

In her hands she holds the distaff and grasps the spindle with her fingers. She is the distaff side and he is the spear side. Years ago a woman was spoken highly of if she had her distaff and her spindle. That was said to be her means of making things for her household. The man was the spear side, to be outside providing for his family.

As we see now times have changed, not many women stay within the home. Yet are we stronger one might say, because not only are we doing the spear side, we are the distaff side as well. I think we need to stop and think for a moment though what are we doing to our family? Is it damaging to play both sides? Being distaff does not mean that you are less then the spear. God has placed you where he knows you fit best.

Can you hold your place with distaff, are you powerful enough to know everything you wish to grasp is at your finger tips!

(c) 2011 Ebony Larijani

Monday, September 17, 2012

Proverbs 31 Woman, Day 8

She sees her trading is profitable and her lamp does not go out at night. Independent women stand up! I think this woman is teaching us that independence does not mean we are walking around singing we don't need a man, but we should say we have a family and still we know how to invest and build what will not run out. As she sleeps she rest assured that her 'lamp', her finances will not run out.

Most people lay in their beds at night wondering how they will pay their bills tomorrow, feed their children, gas up their car. Turn your worried mind off and know your wealth lamp does not go out.

(c) 2011 Ebony Larijani

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Proverbs 31 Woman, Day 7

She sets about her work vigorously, her arms are strong for her tasks. Mental strength and body strength. Have you heard the saying "mothers instinct"? This verse describes to me what a mother/woman is capable of, yet first she must be mentally strong in order for her body to be strong.

I have read about how Olympic runners often use visual affirmations before the day of their race. They play out the entire race visually in their mind and the excitement and joy they feel to mindfully win the race fills their body with indescribable strength on the day of the race.

For this woman to set about her work, she is mentally setting her mind to achieve victorious things. With that mindset her arms/body is filled with the strength that she needs daily.

Are you eating healthy, taking your vitamins, working out, and most importantly are you mentally set?

(c) 2011 Ebony Larijani

Saturday, September 15, 2012

Proverbs 31 Woman, Day 6

She considers a field and buys it, with the fruit of her hands she plants a vine yard. I love the way she considers what she invests in. Surely as a woman she has jumped into things in the past and the results were probably painful. She learned the lesson, to consider now means to ask God. Patience must be of ease to know that He will provide answers in due season.

Fruitful hands, that is powerful. Not many know what they are capable of bearing. Yet she knows, she knows her hands bear fruit to many and so she most likely makes sure she keeps them clean. You would not find her hands handling unworthy things.

She plants! Times have changed because I can count the number of gardens I see daily. We no longer grow our own fruit. We place trust in Grocery Stores, not knowing that what they most often spray veggies worth would shock you. When I first started my garden I was eager to see my veggies grow. But the most important part of my gardening was tearing up roots and seeing how powerful they are. I wrote my garden a note right after we planted seeds because I believe in the law of attraction. I wanted health to grow and health to nourish bodies. I feel great when I can tell my children to go out back and bring me a tomato or any other herbs/veggies we have.

Proverbs 31 is so uplifting, even the she seems to always be planting. What are you planting? Consider it, be fruitful in grasping it and water your vines.

(c) 2011 Ebony Larijani

Friday, September 14, 2012

Proverbs31 Woman, Day 5

She rises while it is still dark, prepares food for her family and portions for her servant girls. When does she rest is what I think as I get to each verse. This morning though I was reminded, I don't need to ask about how she was capable of all of these things, for it is not her, but God in her. So what can't she do!

I believe the morning was her quiet time, her time to pray, prepare and renew. I vision her singing soft praises to God, humming with a smile. I'm sure she peaked in on her children and smiled at them as they slept. I vision her touching her husbands hand while he slept and feeling the strength they have together.

I can smell the breakfast cooking before they rise. I imagine dinner being prepared for the night to come. Her giving nature allows her to taken portions from her family to give to others. I think this is beautiful that she has confidence in knowing God will provide enough for her family so she may give to others. How amazing her family must feel to know how blessed she is and faithful she is to God.

(c) 2011 Ebony Larijani

Thursday, September 13, 2012

Proverbs 31 Woman, Day 4

She is like the merchant ships, she brings her food from afar. When I think of a Merchant Ship I vision something big, strong, powerful. It is built to withstand something so calm or damaging and that is water. It is made to float and not sink. It serves as a purpose to many and if operated by to many it can crash/sink. Here she is again this woman of unimaginable strength and now we compare her to a ship.

I have to think though if I were going out to bring back food for my family I would go through the ruff waters if need be to find them fresh food. I would travel afar to bring them herbs from countries un thought of. I want their body's healthy and so I'm not just placing anything on their plates. I am the ship smashing through ruff waters or gliding on the surface, going afar to bring back health.

What are you feeding your family? Are they eating sugar filled cereal in the morning? Are they getting their daily dose of vitamins?

(c) 2011 Ebony Larijani

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Proverbs 31 Woman, Day 3

She selects wool and flax and works with eager hands. This woman literally clothed her family with wool, flax and eager hands. How beautiful to look at your family and see them clothed in your works. They did not rush to stores to stand in lines and be the first to purchase an item that is highly priced and no doubt worn to increase self confidence. I am sure she was not eager to stitch jeans that hung off the butt of her sons, nor did she stitch garments that revealed her daughters precious body.

I remember when I felt like I had an addiction to VSPink cloths. I had every item in the stores yet I would still go back to the store looking for something new to buy and frustrated that I had it all. As I began to review myself I took some time away from the store and I ventured into thrift stores. I remember leaving out the thrift store spending the cost of one shirt from VS on 5 items. I took the rest of my money and donates it. Yes, I still like VS but I have cut back on the desire to have everything.

I encourage you to seek through your closets and your children's closets. How are you living? Are you living a flashy lifestyle making material things your center. Are you living in the lower class and can't afford to cloth your children? Either way I encourage you to pray for your flax and wool and be eager with your hands.

(c) 2011 Ebony Larijani

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Proverbs 31 Woman, Day 2

Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value. I know this does not mean that she buys her husband everything so he is valuable. No, this value is speaking more deeply. This value is preciousness, this value is Proverbs 31 Woman. She is valuable to her husband so he lacks nothing that he needs in his wife. He has everything he needs through her should he lack something of his own.

To have confidence in someone else means you have confidence in yourself. Imagine how powerful they must be together. Two valuable persons with confidence that nothing shakes them, nothing makes them unbalanced. I imagine them looking each other in the eye and knowing their worth and their responsibility to each other.

Does the man in your life have this trait in him when he approaches you, does he value you? Is he confident with himself so he may be confident in you? Are you giving this demand out through your own actions of what you deserve?

If I were to turn on the radio to today's top Rap songs I do not hear confident men rapping and I believe that is why their words are degrading woman.

(c) 2011 Ebony Larijani

Monday, September 10, 2012

Proverbs 31 Woman, Day 1

For the next 31 days I will read Proverbs 31 and allow it to transform my life as I read it each day. It is true that two people can look at the same thing yet see something different. As I do this over the next 31 days I will share what I see in the verses and what it means to me. If you would like to join me and share at anytime what your getting out of the reading feel free to share on here or you can email.

Day 1 - Wow! Are you serious, who can be like this woman? She sounds like she doesn't get any sleep and she works non stop for everyone else. I need rest after a long day of cleaning, but she sounds like she goes on forever. Am I inspired by her? Honestly, at times yes I am, other times I feel like I'm competing with someone who didnt have the demands that us women have today.

(c) 2011 Ebony Larijani

Saturday, September 8, 2012

I Am Like Water

It is the ocean waves that remind me of my strength
The cool shower that reminds me of my soft touch
I am powerful, I can take down walls, I can break through barriers
I can clean the body, nourish the soul
Children enjoy the fun they have with me
I produce growth to those around me
I hydrate
I appear clear and unseen
I splash with excitement or hidden shock
I stream into the deepest sea
And I continue to rise

(c) 2011 Ebony Larijani

Thursday, September 6, 2012

Day Old Coffee

It might be me, but I love day old coffee. In case you have that ewww gross look on your face, yes I do keep it refrigerated. But it's something about day old coffee that is so tasty to me. It might not appear to be the freshest thing, but to my taste buds it holds something special.

Maybe age is a great thing if aged right and cared for. The refrigeration shows I took care of it, milk of course would spoil if not refrigerated and so the nurture I gave this coffee was excellent. Heating it up the next day brings that warm feeling back to my taste and fills my body. So the preparation I gave it before it fulfilled its purpose was pleasing to us both.

I guess what I'm thinking here in the moment of drinking my day old coffee is, things sometimes are better with age, as long as they are cared for during the aging process.

(c) 2011 Ebony Larijani

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

I Have The Time

Do you ever wonder why you have the time to watch TV, post on Facebook, surf the Internet, gossip on the phone, etc? Yet when it comes to doing things that are going to move us forward in life we seem to say "I have no time to read, study, write, exercise, etc". Why is it so easy to do what we shouldn't? I believe God made us this way. He wants to see who is eager for the blessings and who just sits around making excuses. What if your blessing was in the flip of the next page, the step of the next exercise routine, the script in the next workbook your studying. So many times we give up when the blessing is right there. I encourage you not to be hard on yourself, but be faithful to yourself, even if you have to be faithless to something else.

Every Monday I give myself a task to complete. I name it at the beginning of the week and I tell myself each day how proud I am to have made it through the day keeping my promise to myself. One week I choose no TV another week I chose mirror affirmations, another week I chose no Facebook for the week, etc.

What can you do without next week? Choose it and then daily remind yourself how much self control you have and how proud of yourself you are. Because at the end of each day, it is ourselves who controlled our day.

(c) 2011 Ebony Larijani

Monday, September 3, 2012


The butterfly...
still as beautiful as the day it first found me broken...
It shared a story of caterpillar days
and then taught me about wings
I'm flying...
I can't speak for the one that taught me flight

(c) 2011 Ebony Larijani

Dear Little One

Dear little boy, you are loved, soar like the white dove, your pain shows in your look, knowledge on the things you've took... Dear little boy you sit so at peace with thee, smiling knowing your free, we love here and we accept, we heal where you neglect... Dear little boy may God shield you, appearance has you stumped below, so we clothe you to understand and know... Dear little boy you hug so sweet, prayer is where your name stays on repeat...

(c) 2011 Ebony Larijani

I Lost My Pen

I lost my pen
On purpose you see
Because I needed to speak
I lost my pen and crumbled my paper
I had to speak this out loud
Just when I noticed how much you watch rather then listen
I decided to pick up my pen again
I uncrumbled my paper
For I waist nothing
Not even my voice to someone who watches more then they listen

(c) 2011 Ebony Larijani